door to door.

As this school year comes to an end, the one word that sums up how I feel is relief. Life's twists and turns have broken and pressed me, especially my natural, fleshy tendency to try and do things without God. Though some circumstances haven't changed and probably won't for a little while, I love the feeling of one door closing and another opening, knowing that God holds the door keys. 

"These are the words of the Holy One, the True One, He Who has the key of David, Who opens and no one shall shut, Who shuts and no one shall open: I know your [record of] works and what you are doing. See! I have set before you a door wide open which no one is able to shut; I know that you have but little power, and yet you have kept My Word and guarded My message and have not renounced or denied My name." Revelation 3:6-8 (AMP)

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Looking back on this year, God has done so much, and as I look forward, he is taking me through even more transition. Transition. Wow, I feel like it's a constant, love/hate thing. Thank you, God, that there is grace in the transition, walking out of one door and stepping into another! The door that I'm seemingly leaving marks a season of pressing into the unfailing, never-changing character of God. At Awaken 2012, Lexia Meek, leader of the prayer ministry, describes knowing that God is good regardless of feeling or circumstance as having "the top-button is buttoned." God is buttoning my top-button, and from there, the rest of buttons are easily buttoned. Regardless of circumstance and feeling, I have been learning to lean on the goodness and faithfulness of God. It's a day-to-day process, sometimes hour-to-hour. God has been so, so tender during this season. In the storms, he's been my rock, fortress, refuge, and everything safe. The intimacy gained with God during this time could not have been found elsewhere.

The door I stand before holds so many promises. I am expectant without expectations, and I am extremely excited with a hint of nervousness. At the end of this year, I will begin living with the Owen family, Andrew, Michele, Andy, Josh, Rachel, and Makaela. And I'll be rooming with the infamous Annie Howard (her blog). "Stoked" encompasses most of my feelings. And today, I announced in my Lifegroup that I'm being launched out to start a freshmen Lifegroup in the fall. What. Am. I. Doing? Ha. Both living and Lifegroup changes are so fun but bittersweet. I love my roommates and my Lifegroup, but the next chapter is going to be amazing! In addition, I will be graduating in December of this year with hopes of doing Elevate in 2013. Those are just some of the exciting, transitional things, but each of those things holds beautiful, sweet promises of God that I'm so eager to unpack.

Despite the amazing events ahead, I am deciding and resolving that I simply want God. Yes, I am so for the promises, the solutions, healing, etc. and so is God. But, he is also so much for the process of me knowing the depths of his heart towards me. Every door and every season holds that! Every time I leave a door, I will know more of God's heart towards me, and before I twist the knob of the next, I will be expectant to see more of God's heart towards me.

We, as believers, can be sure that the doors he shuts, no one can open, and the doors he opens, no one can shut. As we walk through life, we will exit one door to enter another knowing more of God's heart and being made like Jesus. "But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from the Lord, the Spirit" (1 Corinthians 3:18). We're going door to door, glory to glory!